Saturday, May 31, 2008
This is a Buddha garden that Kaia made in school. This is the Buddha sitting under a tree. (I think he gained enlightenment here? showing my lack of knowledge...)
Kaia learned about Buddha a couple weeks ago, and had a surprisingly clear memory of what they taught. I can't remember all of it, but parts of her explanation go as such:
"Buddha was a prince, and he was rich, but he hated to see so much suffering so he gave up all of his possessions."
"He sat under a tree like this (shows lotus position, or a 6 year old's idea of it) and was very still"
She actually remembered a lot more than that, but sadly, I do not.
Friday, May 30, 2008
And I can't get them out. I can't write it coherently enough for public consumption. Or I start to, and it's whiny, or braggy, or some other such thing I don't really want to publish. So I close it, or delete it, or change the subject.
So here I am, writing a post about not writing several other posts. Exciting, yes? no? hmm....how about an abbreviated version of a few of them in the form of unsatisfyingly short bullets? mmkay.
- insecurity: I am tired of "making friends"here. I want to HAVE friends here. I am tired of being unsure of how others think of me. Unsure of how I am seen by others. I am tired of caring, but I can't stop. Also? I want a darn talent! something, anything, that sets me apart.
- pride: I have made a lot of progress in my non-spending of money. My kids are both happy and healthy. I am very secure in my marriage.
- kids: actually, I have nothing in this category right now, but this is one area I feel I cover pretty often.
- rants: for the first time, I am nervous about who will become our new president. We need major change, and fast. our country needs to wake up and start making other changes too. We use THIRTY percent of the world's resources. and my dryer needs to be looked at. the damn lint thing doesn't catch all the lint and I'm worried it'll build up inside.
- babblings: I'm still excited about my blueberries. There will only be a couple handfuls, but I am growing blueberries. Nothing specific really about Kaia's school, I just still really love it. I can do an entire grocery shopping at Trader Joe's in half an hour, thanks to the small size of the store. Since that is also about the length of time Ben will sit in a cart, it's a wonderful thing.
and I'd write more, but gotta go pick up Kaia! Thanks for reading, please come again!
Thursday, May 29, 2008
I realized I have still not even looked into recipes that have purple sage (second one on the left) and thyme (second on the right) At least they look pretty!
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
- We had a great time down in Vancouver. We really wish we could have seen Mike's sister and step-mom, but there simply wasn't time.
- Thank you Mick, for my Trader Joe's gift card, and thank you Kate for my shoes! Both are awesome birthday presents.
- Thank you mom and dad for the humor book, amber (!) pendant, bracelets, cd, and framed cross stitch. I didn't get one thing this year that I feel is breaking my rule of nothing in my house that I don't love!
- I am so glad we got to hang out at Tania and Simon's. I can't WAIT to see that darling little baby girl of theirs, and I really wish I could go to Canada next month. :-(
- I am fighting desire for a Wii.
- We discovered when we got back that one of our cats let out anger at our disappearance by peeing repeatedly on our bed. The futon mattress is ruined.
- However, we are possibly getting some money soon, and I have some birthday money, so we are getting a new, king size Japanese-style futon to replace it.
- This means we can sell our old bed frame, which will also help pay for the new bed.
- Kaia and my dad took my parents' dogs for a walk. They tried to run away while Kaia was holding both leashes. She knew that one of them would be hard to catch if she got away, so HELD the leashes, even though she was DRAGGED several feet! I am proud of her for that, though she would not have gotten in trouble had she let go.
- Ben is getting easier to travel with! The car trip both ways went very smoothly.
Saturday, May 24, 2008
Thursday, May 22, 2008
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
let me explain, and you can help me out.
A few weeks ago, I ordered some scrapbooking things from Joann.com. The estimated time of delivery was 5-10 business days. A little over a week later, I got a BIG box from them, way bigger than needed for all 4 items. Inside were only 2 of the 4 things I ordered. Looking over the box, I noticed that one end was taped with that tape that has strings going through it, so is really secure, but the other side was taped with a single layer of basic packing tape, and had ripped at one end, leaving a hole about 4 inches wide. I hadn't seen the two things that were missing in person, and figured the hole was probably big enough for both of them to fall through.
However, and this is important, I realized that items are not always shipped in the same box. So I checked the packing slip, and ALL FOUR items were listed as being in that shipment.
So I called Joann's and told them that I had received the box, but two of the items were missing. They looked up my order, apologized, and assured me that they would send out replacement items. I said thank you, and asked for an estimated date of arrival. Again, they said 5-10 business days. I said that was fine, thanks again, and that was that.
About 5 days later (so sooner than the first time, but within their estimate), a package came with the two items. I noticed that one of them was maybe a bit big to have fit through the ripped hole in the first package, but figured I was wrong. I was happy, and went about my business.
Then TODAY, about 5 days after the SECOND box had come, so about 10 days after I called them, ANOTHER package arrived, with the two items again.
So what I guess happened was that the two items had never been in the first package, but had been shipped separately. So here's my problem. I have two things I did not pay for. BUT I did check the slip, and it said all four things should have been in the first shipment. AND when I called, shouldn't it have been in the system that the items were in a different shipment? Oh, and I had also received an email before I got any packages saying that my initial order had been shipped, and it listed all four items, and said nothing about multiple shipments.
I really don't feel like calling them up, and asking for a return slip (cause I am not paying to ship it back to them) then re-packaging them up and driving to the post office (out of my way for anywhere I go) and sending it off. I don't feel it was my mistake.
What do you think?
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
Monday, May 19, 2008
Mike: Oh yes? Where'd you find it? Outside?
Kaia: No, on the dining room table.
Kaia: How'd it get there, I wonder?
Mike: Well, what do inchworms do?
Kaia: ............ measure things?
He is ALMOST crawling. He move a couple of times, but hasn't yet gotten the hang of continued forward movement.....
Sunday, May 18, 2008
Mike just got his usual "very short all over, longer on top than on the sides and back" cut. I have been dithering about getting my hair cut because of how long I've been growing it out, but I really never wear it down, and it annoys me more than anything else, so I got it cut in sort of an A line...as it grows and I get it trimmed it'll be more of an A line (longer in front than in back). Kaia originally wanted her hair short all over, but then changed her mind and wanted hers like mine. Her hair is much more suited to an A line and looks ADORABLE.
I wasn't impressed with our stylists. I won't go into details, because it's not important, we'll just go somewhere else next time, and I am mostly happy with the results.
I am happy I decided to just cut mine, and Mike, though skeptical at first, seems to like my hair this way too. Kaia's haircut will hopefully cut down on the morning snarl fight!
I will try later to post pictures again!
Saturday, May 17, 2008
We had a wonderful time at the Faire. It was REALLY hot, but I'm not going to complain, I love it after the long winter and cold spring. Kaia had a blast too, there was a lot of activities for her to do, from digging in sand for treasure, to fishing for treasure, to making her ribbon wand. The heat got to Mike a bit, and he started out tired, so 5 hours was a bit much for him, but he had fun too. When we got home the kids and I got into a bath, and Mike got into a shower, and that cooled us all off and improved 4 out of 4 moods!
Friday, May 16, 2008
(check out the cheeks on the baby to the left...isn't that adorable?!)
take Kaia to school.
on the way back, stop by Whole Foods for the all-natural marshmallows that I have to use for the rice krispie treats I am making for her school faire this Saturday.
then stop by Kinko's for that label paper to print out ingredient labels for the food I make for the faire.
come home, quickly get cake into oven. hopefully it will be done before....
go to infant play date with 8 other moms from my mother's group.
come home, frost cake.
make rice krispie treats, cut into shapes.
cut cake into individual slices.
wrap cake slices and treat pieces in saran wrap (note to self: make sure I have enough saran wrap)
print labels with my name and ingredients and put on treats.
take to Kaia's school by 3:15. (luckily, she is going to after school care today, so I don't have to pick her up until I take the treats)
with both kids, go to Trader Joe's and do a grocery shopping.
I really, really hope Mike doesn't work late today. I have a feeling I am going to want to hand over boyo as soon as possible.
hmmm...I wonder what my Aunt Carol is doing this afternoon....Ah-Yi, would you be interested in coming over and keeping me company while I bake?!
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
He's not one to give up though, so keep checking back! Not posting probably means I'm busy chasing after him as he dashes madly about the house, creating havoc and causing chaos!
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
Yes, I am lucky!
I also wanted to list the differences between his nap earlier, where he cried himself to sleep, (referred to as Today)and his usual naps, where we walk him to sleep, (referred to as Usual) then carefully put him down, sometimes unsuccessfully. If he did wake up, the whole process started over, though often taking less time.
1. Usual- takes him 10-40 minutes to fall asleep, either by eating, being walked, or laying on the bed with him. Today- 20 minutes in his crib, then 3.
2. Usual- If he stirs at all during his nap, that's it, he's awake. Today- he stirred, moved around a bit, then fell back asleep about 40 minutes in.
3. Usual -nap is about 45 minutes long, and he wakes up crying. Today -first nap was almost an hour and a half, and he woke up calmly.
4. Usual -he's still tired after his nap, because he didn't sleep long enough. Today - he was cheerful and awake, because he slept longer.
The other way he naps is on me. That way he sleeps long enough, but I can't get anything done.
I feel so much better about letting him cry earlier! I still don't want to let him get desperate in the future, but it looks promising. I hold no hope for this helping him sleep through the night, or even wake up less, but this will help us establish a usual bedtime for him, instead of whenever we feel up to going through the long process.
It is now 8:57. He's been in there for about 5 minutes, and fussing for about 3. He's not screaming, but is definitely NOT happy. I went in a minute ago and made sure his feet weren't caught in the crib bars or anything. He was still laying down, which is good. He can't stand, of course, but he can get up on all fours and rock back and forth.
8:58. His crying is getting a bit more desperate. where is my mother?! he is saying. she's always been here when I cry like this BEFORE!
8:59 there was a moment of quiet, as if he were listening for me. He's back to crying. oh...quiet again...and back to crying. He does this growling thing when he's mad.....it'd be funny if it weren't so...not.
9:00 there's still not actual screaming. There are pauses in the crying, which is good. I think I will make sure he's not stuck.
9:01 He was not stuck. I laid him back down and patted his back. I think it pissed him off more. He's getting a little more upset. Should I just get him?!!?? I wish motherhood came with a manual. A real one, not written by humans, but one that magically appeared with each child born, geared especially for that baby.
9:03 Still very mad. I think I will check some websites...not baby related ones, just ones to distract me.
9:04 he quieted for a second, then got back to yelling...but it encourages me..a bit...
9:06 he is going from very mad to quiet whimpers....I feel like the worst mom ever. going to go pat him again. wait...he quieted...damn! I don't know if it's best to go in and pat him or just let him be!
9:09 well, the crying isn't getting worse that's a good thing, right?!?! I need some chocolate or something....
9:11 no change.
9:12 it isn't helping that there is a big truck outside beeping quite loudly. if I give up now, it'll be worse next time, right?!?
9:13 maybe there shouldn't be a next time. maybe I should just permanently attach him to me via baby carrier and join the whole attachment parenting movement. my back would kill me, but he wouldn't be crying!!!
9:15 mom called. but has something serious to discuss. boyo is starting to maybe calm down.
9:19 SILENCE!!! YAY!!!!! WHEW.
9:20 DAMN. crying again. wait...no...silence. *bated breath*
9:22 just peeked in. he's sleeping!!!!!
huge sigh of relief.
Monday, May 12, 2008
Me: Looking outside.
Me: No real reason.
Her: Well, that's silly.
Her: I'm gonna draw you a picture.
Me: Thank you!
Her: What should I draw?
Me: Umm...a horse.
Her: I don't want to draw a horse.
Me: Then draw whatever you want.
Her: Fine, I'll draw a horse.
Her: What color?
Her: How about pink?
Her: What color do you want it's mane?
Me: Are you actually going to color it the color I choose?
Her: (offended) Of course!
Her:........orange? really? Are you sure?
Her: aahhhh...fine. I think I'll draw a queen instead. What color should I use?
Her: Can you see me: (hiding under pillows)
Me: (looking over) No.
Her: How about now?
Me: (looking over again) No.
Her: How about now?
Me: (again, looking over again) A little bit of the top of your head.
Her: (not moving at all) How about now?
Me: (again again looking over again) A little bit of the top of your head. I'm not looking over anymore.
Her: One more time!
Her: (again, not moving) How about now?
Me: *sigh* A little bit of the top of your head.
Her: How about now?
Her: (looking at an old Halloween picture of Simon and Tania) Who are these people?
Me: Simon and Tania.
Her: What are they?
Me: Simon is a tourist. Tania is a cat.
Her: What's a tourist?
Me: Someone who visits somewhere other than where they live and go see the cool things there.
Her: What's on his nose?
Me: Sunblock. It's a tourist cliche.
Her: What's a cliche?
Me: umm....something that is said a lot. A lot of tourists go to warm places, so they wear sunblock.
Her: What's a tourist?
Me: Someone who goes somewhere other than where they live!
Her: Tania is a cute cat!
Me: Yes, she is!
Her: What was Simon again?
Me: A TOURIST.
Her: What's a tourist again?
Saturday, May 10, 2008
Ten Years Ago what were you doing?
Ten years ago...let's see, I was about to turn 21...uh oh. umm...I was married to Abe, living in Vancouver, Wa. I was trying to convince him to start trying to have a baby (WHEW! thank god THAT didn't work!). I think I was working at Chevron.
Five Things on Today’s “To Do” List
-sleep in (done!)
- go to the bank and open two more checking accounts. (bank was closed.)
- umm...can't really think of anything else.
If I were a Billionaire
I'd buy a lot of land, build several houses, invite a few families to live on it with me, start a commune type thing. Put money away for kids' college funds. Buy new cars for Mike and me. Invest. Go on a cruise. or two....three?
Three Bad Habits
- losing my patience with my daughter.
- taking things that have nothing to do with me personally.
- eating too much sugar.
Five Places I’ve Lived
- White Salmon, Wa
- Hope Peninsula, ID
- Pullman, Wa
- Vancouver, WA
- Battle Ground, WA
Five Jobs I’ve Had
- gas station clerk
- adult store clerk
- knife salesperson
- wireless consultant
- ESL textbook contributor
Wednesday, May 07, 2008
Ben is doing much better in the crib. He slept almost all night in it last night. (he still woke up several times, but I put him back almost every time.) He's not as scared when he wakes up in it now, just a bit mad. He still needs to fall asleep before he's put in, though I'm hoping to work on that in the next few weeks.
He LOVES finger foods. He figured out yesterday how to reliably get the food actually IN his mouth, and we have to only give him one piece at a time, or he'll stuff his mouth full then gag.
I found Kaia the perfect birthday card! It's a big one, about 1 square foot, and on the front it says "Long Long Ago...." then inside it says "You were born" and plays the Star Wars theme music! She's really into Star Wars right now, and will adore it. Natasha so nicely offered to help with her birthday party, and the plans for it are going well. It's going to be pretty simple, but I want it to go smoothly. I need to remember to get an updated contact sheet from the school office.....
Gotta get back to cleaning! Hope y'all have a wonderful day!
Tuesday, May 06, 2008
I'd like to get better at posting more often...preferably once a day, but I have been tired and busy lately.
Kaia declined her day off last Friday! She wanted to go to school, which actually made me fee better, since she sometimes complains that she doesn't like school. I guess that's normal for all kids.
Tomorrow is her birthday celebration at school since her birthday falls in the summer. She gets to bring the snack and the teacher provides the cake. She chose grapefruit and Wheat Thins for the snack. Mike is pretty sure he can get the time off to go with me to it, as both parents are invited. Kaia has made clear that "invited" means "it's mandatory you come to my birthday!"
Natasha's first ultrasound is today!!
Also on the pregnancy front, I got most of the supplies for Tania's book. I had to order a few things online, since NONE of the stores I went to had basic pastel card stock! Very strange. I found some really cute things though, I am excited to get started! I also figured out the what the basic layout design is going to be.
Friday, May 02, 2008
also, of course, the house needs cleaning. but that can wait.
Thursday, May 01, 2008
(If there's a bustle in your hedgerow don't be alarmed now. It's just a spring clean for the May Queen)
After the festival, Natasha and her son came over for a few hours. The kids mostly got along, but they were both pretty tired, so there was some grief and sorrow. Ah well, they usually get along pretty well.
I really enjoy Natasha's company. We just click, as she said today, it's as if we've known each other for years, and we are very comfortable with each other. I am glad I have found such a friend. We made some more plans for next week. Oh! oh oh oh!! She's pregnant! So is Maggie! Soon there will be three (THREE!!!) wonderful tiny babies for me to hold and kiss their toes! By the time they are all born, Ben will be a year old and running all over, too busy to come cuddle with his mom.....